Tessi isn't "sick". I think when I am in a bad place I come here and my posts are probably very negative. I constantly question her still being here and if I am making the right decisions. I think it is more a look into the future of what I will face. It's not a right now sort of thing.
I've read a lot about can or will happen as things progress with her fibrosarcoma. With the exception of some discomfort that I think we're doing a good job of managing, she is doing very well.
Tessi doesn't miss a meal. She is not vomiting. Her tumor isn't bleeding. There is no sign of infection. I know eventually those things will play a major role in what's to come but right now, my girl isn't sick. Oddly, she's probably healthier than she's been in a while. Might be too much information but Tessi has always had a weak stomach and quite often loose stool that we could never quite correct. We used Flagyl, over the counter remedies, changed her food... I even used natural clay (which was helping a bit before I found out she had cancer) All of a sudden the last couple weeks her stool has been solid. Best it's been in a long time. (Too much information, I'm sure, for some) I've read CBD oil can settle your stomach. I wonder if that's what helping. I'm really not sure.
What I'm saying is.... I know it's not her time to go yet. My heart just dreads that day. I think my writings make it appear it's already that time. It's not. She's still first in line for dinner and comes running when I open the drawer her favorite feather toy is in. My version and her's of what a "bad day" is most likely is very different. She lives in the moment. I am trying to get better at doing the same.
Hugs and Purrs,
Arline
